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Just normal please

I feel like I can breathe again
I can laugh easily again
I can be silly again
I can concentrate again

What a relief!
Most times we appreciate things
Once they are gone

A clear head
A brain that thinks like it should seems like a most normal thing
Living without anxiety seems ordinary
Feeling passion and enthusiasm seems like a given to us
But for me, they are not

And like those things there are
Many other things I can take for granted after a while

But our normal selves are anything but ordinary and normal
That normalness can be lost in an instant
During illness
During times of trials
During transitions in life

Then we will long for normal
Just our ordinary, everyday selves
Nothing fancy
Merely the person we used to be
That self that seems like a distant memory
An unattainable state

And so, we keep longing for normal
Just normal

December 10th, 2017image

limits

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What’s the difference between our interactions online
And those in person
Can’t pretend that the online world does not exist
That’s how we stay in touch with family and friends
Acorss the country and around the world
It’s like letter writing on steroids

The online community is as real as the people who live close to us
We get emotional support from both
We exchange ideas both ways
We bring others cheer both ways

The secret as always is moderation
Anything done to excess is not good
Some limits we need to create for ourselves
No one else can do this for me and you

So the challenge is knowing
When it’s enough
When to stop
When to go offline
I tend to write more when I do
And this poem came to be
Because…
I left my phone accidentally at home

Dec. 5th, 2017

Practice needed

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Plans are sometimes unplanned for us in our lives
Flexibility and detachment are needed at such times
But when you have your heart set on something
When you have taken time to map things out
Flexibility and detachment are not easy
Maybe that’s why we get many chances to practice
Our lives are a series of letting go
Will it get easier with time?
I’m not sure
Will we keep getting opportunities to hone our skills?
There is no doubt

November 29th, 2017

A letter to myself

imageThis is a letter I write to myself
As listen to the birds chirp
As I look out the window
And see the buds on the trees

This is a letter to myself
To remind me that no matter how dark
Everything my seem
No matter how little hope may be left
The dawn will come

This is a letter to myself
I write it now
So I can read it in the darkness of winter
And the gloomy hours of life
To remind myself that things will change
Laughter will return
And the sun will shine

This is a letter to myself
And I know that one day
I will read it in disbelief
Because things have changed
And I’m walking in the shadows again
But I hope that what I write now
Will give me strength to carry on

This is a letter to myself
Signed and sealed
To remind me
That these are the challenges of life
And I will overcome them eventually
Maybe slowly
Maybe painfully
But each and every time

 

-written a few years ago

Jagged lines

We want what we do to be perfect from the start
We feel the need to succeed right away

But no success has come without trials
There is beauty in the imperfect climb
People who succeed
Have failed many time
They know how not to get discouraged
And stay focussed

They keep their eyes on the goal
And keep climbing
Detours and road blocks are
Part of the climb

If we keep doing something long enough
And improve as we go along
There is no way we can’t succeed
And the jagged lines of our climb
Make our path beautiful and unique

 

March 2016inukshuk

Scars

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Scars become part of us
And define us
Most times they tell the stories of hardships overcome

Scars upon our souls are invisible of course
But they have stories too

We walk around with visible and invisible scars
Sometimes we forget they’re there
Sometimes we relive old times

One thing’s for sure
We all have scars

Maybe we can learn to acknowledge them as parts of who we are

Not look at them with disdain
But as rungs of a ladder we climb

August 1st, 2017

The inner child

img_4219Who is the inner child we speak of?
The one who has a sense of wonder and awe?
The one who is innocent and honest?
The one who laughs and giggles?
The one who is creative and fearless?

Yes, all of the above!
Our inner child has all these qualities
That may become veiled over time

Layers of responsibility, sorrows and challenges faced
Can cover the face of our inner child

We can become jaded
Disappointed
Forget to dream and
Become our own worst enemy
When we set limits for ourselves

We can become over cautious, conventional and
Look back at our childhood with nostalgia

Some of that is normal and necessary, but
We have to guard against
Looking backward instead of forward
We need to continue to see ourselves
As agents of change
Plan new adventures and
Fulfill old dreams

Hanging out with those who honor their inner child is very helpful
We can inspire each other to see possibilities instead of road blocks
We can nurture our friendships and build strong bonds of camaraderie
We can look at the period that remains of our lives as a crowing event, a farther climb

Our inner child is still there
It may be hidden under some veils but we can remove those veils and bring those wonderful qualities back into our lives

July 30th 2017

Storm

IMG_4311Healing the wounds of the past
And making sense of trying episodes in my life
Needs reflection
I need to sort out my feelings
I need to express them

Sometimes I grapple with the same thoughts over and over
Sometimes I repeat the scenes in my head

But eventually I get to a place of calm
Where I can let go of the negative feelings
Understand that this episode
Was a chance for me to test my metal
To learn new things
To better understand reality

Yes, it was frustrating
Yes, it reeked havoc in my life and
My patience was tested again
But I weathered the storm
And emerged from the other side
With new insights

 

June 12, 2017

Loved

It’s easier to love others when you feel loved
When you feel appreciated
When you feel cared for

When a cup is full
It can quench the thirst of others
An empty cup can’t offer much

Love, quenches the thirst and fills one’s cup
A cup filled with love
Brings the same joy to another one

May 2nd 2017

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Kindred spirits

Kindred spirits
Those who understand you
Respect you
Love you
And support you

Feeling understood
Makes all the difference in the world
Someone says I see you
I hear you

The desire to be seen and heard
Is common to all of us
I think that’s what it means to be loved

That’s why a good friend is a good listener
That’s why a good friend does not judge
That’s why a good friend accepts you the way you are

I see you
I hear you
I respect you
These are the things that mean I love you
April 17th, 2017