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Heartache

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I’m saddened and in pain

Heartache is visiting me again

 

She wants to stay for a while

But I’d rather that she’d not 

 

She came unannounced and

Took space in my heart

There is not enough breathing room for me

Discomfort is what I feel now

 

But a guest has arrived 

And I need to be polite 

I’ll have to accept the discomfort for now

She will leave in due time

 

13 January 2019

My wish to write

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I wish to write I told someone in my youth

You haven’t lived enough he told me

You have to experience life

To have something to write about

The cup needs to be filled

Before it can quench someone’s thirst

 

I was disappointed 

Even distraught 

I wanted to write ‘now’

 

But he was proven to be right

I had not lived long enough

Not shed enough tears

Not questioned things I believed in

Not gone through confusion and doubt

Not fallen so hard that it was difficult to get up

 

The caged bird sings in captivity

It’s her release

It’s her cry of help

In the lonely confines of the cage

It’s what keeps her occupied

It’s what keeps her alive and brings her joy 

And others are moved by her song

 

January 2019

The struggle

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This is a life of struggle

Struggle of good against evil

Right against wrong

Spiritual versus the material

Light versus darkness

And we will never be free of this struggle

We will never fully arrive

We will never fully conquer our ego

We will falter and fall

We will questions things we hold dear

We will fight external and internal demons

Storms will continue to assail us

Yes, there will be periods of respite

But the next storm is just around the corner

This is not a life of comfort and ease

No matter how materially successful we are

Tests will batter us like powerful waves

Hail will pelt our heads

This is how we grow

This is how we prove ourselves

This is how we show our steadfastness

But struggle we will

And struggle we must

January 3rd, 2019

Fidelity

IMG_7689What is the secret of fidelity?

What makes a commitment endure?

How does one not get distracted from one’s path?

How does one not waver after a while?

Steadfastness is an ongoing struggle

The destination is always far away

And no matter where we are on the path

It will remain in the distance

Temptations and distractions abound along the way

One cannot always close one’s eyes to them

Vigilance is needed

Daily effort is needed

The goal is lofty

And the climb ongoing

 

December 31st, 2018

Another year

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Another year comes to a close
A new year begins
Like any other year
There will be surprises in store
Storms will batter the coast line
The sun will warm up our hearts
Tears will flow
Laughter will ring out
Gratitude will bring us blessings
Friendship will nourish our souls
Lessons will be learned
Mistakes will be made
Poems will be written
Books will be read
Our journey on earth continues
And hopefully
We’ll pick up some wisdom along the way

December 28th, 2018

Unforeseen guest

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Here’s my response to Rumi’s poem, The Gesthouse:

So many times have I tried to write my pain away
Perhaps I should not be doing that

Perhaps I should accept the pain
And welcome it into my day as an unforeseen guest
A guest bearing gifts
I don’t as yet understand

December 17th, 2018

The fall

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If someone’s words hurt me

I’m supposed to forgive them instantly 

My heart should supposedly

Not be offended by anyone

But these are very high ideals

And not easy to live by

Sometimes it’s good to receive a dose of humility 

Sometimes it’s good to come back down to earth

There is a freedom in flying high

But you can also fall

 

December 13th, 2018