My childhood dream

Jul19

As a child I went to a bilingual school

I learned English and was exposed to ithe Western way of life

It seemed to me that women had more rights in the West

No hijab

Any occupation they wanted 

Self confidence 

Freedom to express themselves

I hoped one day I would live 

In a place like that

Today, in Montreal

I listen to the zoom sessions of my husband

A university professor at McGill 

And I hear women talking confidently 

Women standing up for the rights of minorities

Women chairing the meeting

I’m happy my dreams as a child have come true

July 19, 2026

Pause

May9

Sometimes when doing a project

You need to clear your head

Stop and take a break

Ask the universe for guidance 

When you’re too close

You can’t see the big picture

You can’t see the forest for the trees

You have to let silence wash over you

You need to relax and breath

Then with clarity go forward

And complete the job you started

It’s ok to pause for a while 

You’ll continue with more energy 

May 9th, 2026

Radio silence

May7

There is radio silence 

The internet has been high jacked for over a month

Why does anyone need to be in touch with others after all?

Especially if they live abroad

It’s not as if people have relatives outside Iran

Why would they need to hear from each other during a war? 

The internet has been high jacked for over a month

Who needs the internet after all?

It’s not as if people make a living using the internet

It’s not as if they purchase and sell merchandise 

It’s like putting duct tape across someone’s mouth

Don’t they realize they need to eat and talk?

Relatives worry about their loved ones

Friends can’t be in touch 

Businesses come to a halt 

And why?

Because information is the most dangerous commodity during war 

April 5, 2026

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Why a memoir

May6

I don’t remember why I started to write a memoir

Everyone’s life is as interesting as mine

They have had challenges they have overcome

They have had dreams they have realized 

So each of us should and could write a memoir

Only not everyone likes to write 

Not everyone has the patience to go through the process

Not everyone has time

So I think my memoir is as ordinary as yours would be 

But I have the time and the patience and I love to write 

I hope these reasons are enough

May 5th, 2026

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My North Star

Mar26

What is my North Star?

What do I want to do with the rest of my life?

Write for sure

Without writing I don’t know who I am

Without writing I will shrivel up and wilt 

What else?

Be with my family and serve them

My children are adults now 

That took some getting used to 

I want to be in their lives 

I want to be close to them 

What else? 

Continue to grow spiritually 

That’s why we are in this earth

That’s the purpose of our lives

What else?

Serve my community

Continue serving the Shrine 

The jewel of Montreal

What else?

Take care of my health

My health has always been fragile

So many ups and downs in my life 

But I’m grateful for where I am

And want to continue looking after myself

March 26, 2026

My idyllic world

Mar9

The most idyllic time in my school years was my elementary school time
Grades one to grade five
The American school I went to
Boys and girls playing at recess in the yard
No uniform
Classes in English and Persian

By learning English and my introduction to the West
My world opened up
I could see beyond the confines of Iran
I could see how other people lived
What their concerns were

I learned about pollution and the plight of African Americans
I realized there was much more freedom in the West
For women and girls
I learned there was no religious prejudice against Baha’is there

We had Halloween parties
end of the year plays
Art and gym class
And all this took place is a large home where the principal of the school lived upstairs
The woman an American
The man a Persian

I couldn’t get enough of the English language
I wanted to read English books and talk to English speaking people
As if English meant freedom to me
My gateway to thee world

March 9, 2026

My dream

Mar2

I walk down the stairs with my phone in my hand, blaring out the latest news from Iran
Khamenei is dead
That was yesterday’s news
What people were asking for has come to pass
Iran is leaderless and thankfully it will difficult to fill Khamenei’s shoes
He was killed in his own home in broad daylight
As if they knew exactly where he was that fateful morn
There is dancing in the streets
Cars honking till past midnight
Both in Iran and outside Iran
The person responsible for so many deaths is gone
Can it be?
And the bombing continues
Taking out military and intelligence sites
Many high level politicians and commanders have been killed
And Iran has retaliated against the Gulf states
If there is to be a regime change in Iran
We have a long way to go
Dismantling a regime that rules by force and kills its own people is not an easy feat
But I imagine an Iran that doesn’t jail its dissenters and religious minority members
I dream of an Iran that I will be able to visit one day
I dream of a country where the government works for its people
And where corruption is not the norm
I dream of an Iran were capable people run the companies and the ministries
I dream of an Iran that is not at war with the West
I dream of an Iran that is prosperous
And takes its place among free nations
I dream of the end to indoctrination
May our dreams come true

Feb 28, 2026

Red and Orange

Feb18

Guess what colors died first in my markers

The markers I have been drawing with for a long time 

I was surprised but not surprised 

Orange and yellow were the ones

I think I’m attracted to these colors 

It makes sense 

Orange, for the rays of the sun

Red for the warmth of love and friendship

It so happens that I have two favorite mugs in which I drink my morning tea

And one is orange and one is red

These colors mean happiness to me

Laughter and joy 

Smiles on faces 

Warmth in one’s heart 

And yes, I have many red tops 

And orange in my summer dresses 

Orange and red

Joy and love 

February 18th, 2026

frustrated

Feb13

Check-in before you go to the airport

Says the machine

Then a bunch of questions show up

We need your reservation number

Not to be mixed up with your flight number

Although we will need that too, later

Then you need to scan your passport

Oh, something went wrong

Try again!

Success!

What is your return date by the way?

Enter it in this digital calendar

If it doesn’t work the first time

Try again

You know how digital forms are

We need the address where you will stay

And the Zip Code is just numbers, no State required

Now your Visa information

Visa?

Actually with a Canadian passport you don’t need a Visa

But the information is required anyway

How are you feeling?

A little frustrated?

Well, you can finally check in now

Pause

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See you next time

January 31st, 2026