It takes a while to build it up
When your sense of self has been torn down
It takes a while to feel confident again
When your confidence has been shattered
It takes a while to laugh again
When your laughter has been silenced
It takes a while to get moving
When you’ve been stopped in your tracks
It takes a while to accept what was
When that thing is unpleasant
It will happen
But it takes a while
August 24th, 2018
Thankful to be feeling well again
Thankful to start teaching again
Everything has a season
And the season of sadness is over
It took a while
It was extremely hard sometimes
I would lose hope
I’d get frustrated a lot
I was unhappy to be in darkness again
I was tired of hanging in there
Summer came and summer left
My mood finally began to change
As suddenly as darkness came
One day it began to leave again
Still haven’t left it behind
Still processing this time
But I’m working my way back to me
To the confident, optimistic me
It will take a while
That’s normal
I’ll keep writing till all the sadness is gone
August 21st, 2018
Relaxing and enjoying my solitude
It’s been a while since I could say that
Now, silence is not filled with anxiety
Now, I can roam freely in the atmosphere of my thoughts
Now, writing takes me to my place of calm
August 17, 2018
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