When I see the smile on Nicki’s face
When I feel the joy in his heart
I wish I could bottle it up
And drink it once in the morning
Once at night
The giggle, the laughter
The carefree ways
The joy, the enthusiasm
Come what may
To see all the possibilities
Not just the challenges
To smile at the world
With a radiant face
With these sentiments
Nicki overflows
Can I bottle that
Or is that a no?
But wish we can
And wish we may
A bottle of joy
Is my wish today
Pants are one of those garments that make life hard
Plus, they don’t have an irreplaceable raison d’être
A long top can over what needs to be covered
Or leggings will do the job
Pants wrap one’s waist in a tight embrace
I, however, like my mid-section free
Most pants legs hug you too tight
When did pants become like thick stockings?
Then comes shopping for pants
I do it every few years
Only to remember why I’ve not done that
The pants legs always fit me
But when it comes to the waist
It’s as if the pants have shrunk one size
Pair after pair I try my luck
But each time I’m disappointed
Then, I remember why I like leggings
They don’t fight with my midsection
That’s why leggings are my friend
That’s why I really don’t like pants
October 16th, 2019
They are slowly shedding the layers
They put on during the spring and summer months
Some have their colorful garb on
But some branches are naked
Vulnerable
Unable to hide
Unable to pretend
They feel a little shy
On plain view for all to see
And yet, after a while
They start to enjoy their newfound freedom
Freedom from layers of pretense
They feel lighter, more genuine
Vulnerability and freedom to be oneself
Go hand in hand
October 14th, 2019
It’s like starting a new chapter in a book
Beginning a new day
Everything looks crisp and sharp
It’s as if I’ve woken up from a bad dream
It makes me thankful for the little things in life
The energy I have to do things
The joy I experience when writing
Absence of anxiety
Socializing in a relaxed way
Making decisions more quickly
I sometime want to pinch myself
To see if this is reality
How can a few days make such a difference
It’s as if the light switch has been turned on
I need to process what happened
In the last three months
I’m back in the land of the living
And it feels awesome
So many of my days were spent in fog
So much pain and suffering
But those days are over
I can turn the page
And read the rest of the story
With excitement and curiosity
October 7th, 2019
Have you seen someone looking at their phone and smiling
It’s an odd image in a way
The phone can’t be funny, you realize
In reality that person’s attention is somewhere else
Communicating with a friend who can be miles away
You feel a little left out
They smile again and you wonder why
This is the age when distant places come close by
We can communicate with anybody anywhere
So the person on the phone could be smiling
At something their friend in Australia said
Or seeing a picture of their grand child
Taken that day
October 7th, 2019
I know I need to be thankful
But can I complain a little please?
I know I am blessed
But can I feel a little sorry for myself?
I know we all suffer in different ways
But can I ask why me?
I know life is full of ups and downs
But can I now go down please?
Can I complain about
All the times I felt I could not do the simplest things?
All the times I didn’t want to get up and start the day?
All the times I had to push myself to arrange things?
All the times I told myself to hang in there a little longer
All the times I got frustrated
And my patience ran out?
All the times I would see the long road ahead
With no respite?
At least let me pat myself on the back
For surviving this time
Knowing that I could not have done it
Without my family and friends
At least let me be proud of myself
For persevering again
October 1st, 2019
It is the season of fall
When the trees put on their colorful garb
Ready for the festival that arrives once a year
Orange, yellow, red and auburn
Magenta, purple and brown
The colors we see
Evidences of summer are still there
But we can also see the season changing
September 27th, 2019
The ache you feel in your heart
When you leave loved ones
The ache you can’t control, cannot stop
The ache that consumes you
Holds you in a tight grip
The ache that brings tears to your eyes
I felt this ache today
And there was not much I could do
Except accepting it for it was
The ache subsided eventually
It would have been hard to tolerate it for too long
But it may return from time to time
Can’t totally banish it from my heart
June 23rd, 2019
Emotions like waves come to the shore
With noise and fury that lessons gradually
Until they arrive at the shore line and there is a semblance of calm
Before another wave comes
And so on
I feel these waves intensely
They bring me joy and
They bring me heartache
Sometimes the heartaches catch me by surprise
The rush of the wave is unexpected
But calm return eventually
And these waves of emotions
Continue to come to shore
As long as we love
And as long as we live
June 18th, 2019
Everyone’s life takes a different path
We are meant to create ours continuously
Different periods of life bring different opportunities
One needs to examine the road one’s on
Change can be unsettling but interesting
It’s a necessity most of the time
It’s the death of what has been
And the birth of what’s to come
I’m going through a period of rebirth
Trying different clothes on for size
It may take me a while
Till I find what I’m looking for
But I’m on the path
Taking a good look around
June 12th, 2019
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