Tag Archive | winter

Hell freezes over

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When I’m depressed I move through life like molasses

The simplest things take so long to do

And most of the time I have no motivation to do them

I have to force myself to do the easiest tasks

And then I wonder what happened to me?

How did I use do things so easily, so quickly?

Why is my life in slow motion?

I think of my life and the things I’ve accomplished

And wonder how I used to be so effective, so creative?

It is like living in a different body 

Or like my mind has gone on holiday

It is quite discouraging to say the least

And doesn’t do much for my self-esteem

I watch people laugh and go about their lives

While I feel stuck and left behind

These are the unfortunate realities of depression

Each time, I know or I hope I’ll feel better soon

But it always takes much longer than I think

And days go by so slowly

At such times, my friends are my life boats

They give me energy to go on

Their encouragement is the sunshine of my day

Their love lifts me up

Depression sucks!

And only good friends and family 

Are my solace during those times 

February 2nd, 2023

My calling

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Another cloudy day

The sun has abandoned us

It’s either cloudy

Or it snows

Or there is freezing rain

Our hearts year for sunshine

But my energy is back

And there is lots to do

From writing, to editing to publishing

To making videos and adding poetry to my website

It’s almost a part-time job

But there is no monetary compensation

No career perks

Similar to being a full-time mom

That’s how I’ve spend most of my life

Doing things that I find important and rewarding

But not earning a dime

I call Albert my benefactor

He has supported me all along

He says raising children is a most important job

And as for writing

I have no choice

I think it’s my calling in this life

January 21st, 2023

Looking ahead

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It is a grey fall day

The trees are wearing their yellow frocks 

Some are not wearing clothes any longer

They must be shivering in the autumn cold

As I look at our back yard

And contemplate this fall day

I’m transported to next spring

when flowers will blossom again

When the trees will wear their green garb

When the butterflies will look for beautiful flowers to hover around

When the sun will shine bright

And then I think to myself

We have to go through winter first

Days will become darker and colder

Snow will cover the ground

Nothing will seem to be alive any longer

The north wind will blow

And a chill will descend on the land

But those dreary days will pass

And spring will arrive

And we can celebrate the return of joy

We can dance in the streets

We can sing at the top of our lungs

Because it will have been a long winter

And a very well deserved spring

October 14th, 2022

Winter arrives

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Whether we complain or not

The snow will return each year

If we complain

We just create bad vibes and unhappiness 

One has to learn to live with the cold and snow of winter

 

We all go through it together

Experiencing the challenges

And everyday that passes 

We are one day closer to spring

 

I may change my mind in February 

But for now I’ll remain optimistic

 

November 11th, 2019

Fall carpet

 

DB1D173B-2DAE-42DC-AF61-9054E7E5DEF6.jpegThe trees have spread their fall carpet under them

They are inviting us to sit with them for a while

Look at the beauty of nature and

The amazing colors, a feast for the eyes

 

They say let’s look back at the summer

What did you enjoy?

What was hard?

 

They say let’s look ahead to winter

The season of hibernation 

We can still do a lot in those cold months

 

They say let’s think about right now 

The blessings we have

How far we’ve come And then they thank us for visiting them 

And staying for a while 

 

October 16th, 2019

Desolate

IMG_7448.JPGAlone and lonely
In this icy landscape
Deep in thought
Contemplating the coming of winter
Wondering where my friends went

Only a few weeks ago
We were flying in the blue sky
Singing our songs
Without a care
And now
My surroundings feels like an icy grave
Where did my friends go?

Without them my world is so gray
Joy has disappeared
And the howling of the wind
Like sad music
Reminds me of other desolate times
Where did my friends go?

 

December 11th, 2017

Naked

img_0343It’s winter
The trees have lost their leaves
Their branches stand naked
Nothing protects them from the glances
That are cast upon them

The nests built in the shadow of their leaves
In spring
Stand exposed

There is something sad about
The absence of the lush leaves
That decorate their branches

In the summer time
But there is beauty
In their new found transparency

Their branches are extended
With self confidence
Nothing weighs them down
At this point
They feel lighter
Even though they are exposed
No secrets
No hidden agenda

They are vulnerable though
Ice will cover their branches during
Freezing rain
Weigh them down and break them
They will feel the sharp jabs
Of hailstones more acutely
But there is always a price to pay
When baring one’s soul

November 25th, 2016

photo credit:  Masoud Atrvash

Celebration

imageAfter a long winter
I needed a new wardrobe
New clothes representing
A new me, a rebirth

After major upheavals one needs to
Mark the occasion, learn the lessons
And try to forge meaning from what was

Sometimes we can’t explain everything
Some mystery remains
But that is part of the condition of this life

I look forward more than I look behind me
I try to put my energy in new projects, new beginnings
And celebrate the coming of spring

Dreaming…

If Canada were situated in the tropics
There would be no room to stand
The immigration waiting list would be a mile long
Not to mention all the visitors swarming our land

But wouldn’t it be lovely
To move this wonderful place
To warmer climes

The peace, the tranquility
The courtesy, the humility
The diversity and richness
The striving for excellence
All of this in a sunny spot
Where winter would not make
Many of us hibernate for months

Yes, I know
We can’t have it all
But I can dream, can’t I?

June 9th, 2014