It’s a new year because we have decided to mark time this way
Otherwise today is not that different from yesterday
Or a day in the last month
The renewal we feel in the New Year
We decide to leave a year behind
And start another one
We decide to leave disappointment and loss behind
We leave behind unhappy memories and the time that was
We start fresh in our minds and hearts
We make new plans for the days to come
We feel rejuvenated and possibility
Is what we see
So, as the New Year begins
Let’s say good bye to what was
And embrace what is
Let’s turn a new page
Let’s look ahead with hope and expectation
How can one endure pain and not complain?
How can one be treated unfairly and not show anger?
How can one be mistreated and maintain a positive attitude?
The answer alludes me
But I know it is possible
Because I have known such people
I’ve observed them
I’ve read about them
And wondered where their strength comes from
Why their hope does not fade?
Why in their lives, sorrow does not reign?
Someone said that no one can take away
One’s freedom of how one responds to difficult situations
It is the response that defines us, shapes us
It’s in realising that we have a choice in how we look at the situation
How we interpret it
How we react to it
To maintain hope
To have patience that is born of wisdom and faith
To be resigned to what can’t be changed
These are born of the nobility of man
That allows him to respond so heroically to injustice
March 21st, 2016
Everyone tells me I’ll be fine
I’ve been here before
And I’ll get out again
I believe them, sort of…
But that doesn’t ease the pain
The challenges I’m facing now are ever present
I’m still in the battlefield being battered and bruised
The fact that sometime in the distant future
This will be all over is cold comfort!
Yes, I’ll be fine
But what about now?
How am I to endure this pain
That won’t let go of me
How am I to smile
Knowing that tomorrow will be the same
And victory is in the distance
Nevertheless I have to find reasons
To keep hope alive
I rely on my friends
On prayer, on art!
The journey is long
There are not that many signs to
Show me the way
I walk with a heavy heart
With indescribable sadness
My energy drained
My laughter silenced
My mind foggy
My flow of words slowed to a trickle
My surroundings grey
It’s cold comfort to know that
Nightmare will be over when one is
In the midst of one
But human beings are resilient
We can always find reasons to go on!
“The castaway’s worst mistake is to hope too much and do too little”*
Feeling depressed is similar to
being stranded on a boat in an ocean
with no land in sight
Every day is the same
The challenges are the same
The fears are the same
The limitations are the same
The questions are the same
Why am I here?
How am I supposed to survive this?
Who is going to rescue me?
How long will this agony continue?
When will this nightmare end?
Floating on an ocean of negative thoughts
Dark clouds of hopelessness surround you
Sometimes it pours misery
Sometimes the heat of trials is unbearable
Sometimes you feel numb to all feeling
And all the while you wonder how to go on
The loneliness is intense
No one to console you
No guarantee that the rescuer
Will arrive in time
Or that you will find your way
Out of this maze
The mistake is to rely on hope only
To choose patience over action
To count the days
Till someone comes
The mistake is to think
That the only thing that brings you joy
Is the sight of land
Salvation lies in realizing that
Some of the answers lie within you
Your actions will determine your fate
Praying is appropriate
But so is taking a stand!
Salvation is in problem solving
When no solution seems to come to mind
Salvation is in not giving up
No matter how many times
What you thought may work proves wrong
Salvation is in taking small steps each day
Steps to help you stay afloat a little longer
It’s no picnic
No walk in the park
But giving up is not an option
Persistence and action is the answer
To finding a way out!