At the heart institute for treatment
But your heart is in perfect health
As loving as it can be
As patient as it can be
As joyful as it can be
No treatment needed for this compassionate heart
If anything we need to find how
Your heart became what it has become
Needless to say the trials of life have purified it
Needless to say prayer has burnished it
You may be in the heart institute for treatment
But your heart is in much better shape than ours…
Everyone tells me I’ll be fine
I’ve been here before
And I’ll get out again
I believe them, sort of…
But that doesn’t ease the pain
The challenges I’m facing now are ever present
I’m still in the battlefield being battered and bruised
The fact that sometime in the distant future
This will be all over is cold comfort!
Yes, I’ll be fine
But what about now?
How am I to endure this pain
That won’t let go of me
How am I to smile
Knowing that tomorrow will be the same
And victory is in the distance
Nevertheless I have to find reasons
To keep hope alive
I rely on my friends
On prayer, on art!
The journey is long
There are not that many signs to
Show me the way
I walk with a heavy heart
With indescribable sadness
My energy drained
My laughter silenced
My mind foggy
My flow of words slowed to a trickle
My surroundings grey
It’s cold comfort to know that
Nightmare will be over when one is
In the midst of one
But human beings are resilient
We can always find reasons to go on!
Do we ever know for sure
What the future holds?
Can we really plan everything out?
Can we see into the future
And guarantee success?
Sometimes what we thought was impossible, happens!
Sometimes what we thought was for sure, disappears!
We can plan
We can calculate
Put in safeguards
Have contingency plans
And yet, the project can fail
The trajectory can change in an instant!
We like to think we are in control
And we are to a certain extent
But as soon as we think we’re totally in control
The unexpected arrives to show us we’re wrong!
Sometimes the best things are unplanned
They just appear in one’s path
Most times intuition is more accurate than intellect
Sometimes the right people appear in our lives
And their influence is life changing, transformative in fact!
Not much planning goes into that!
Only recognition of the blessing
That has been put in our path!
Sometimes things that seem illogical work out
Plans that seem impractical bear fruit
And how is one to know?
I let intuition and prayer be my guide!