I feel like I’m in a cocoon
It’s very dark in here
There is discomfort and pain
I feel like I’m in a cocoon
Can’t see what’s outside
Can’t see the future
I know I can’t stay here for ever
But how long do I need to wait?
Feeling a little claustrophobic
My world is so small
Will it ever change?
I’ve heard stories about a beautiful world out there
Full of life and colour
Full of bird song and meandering rivers
Is that just a story?
Will I ever get there?
I want to believe the stories of transformation
I want to believe that this small abode
This dark place of limitations and sorrow
Will one day give way to a marvellous world
June 7th, 2020
It’s cloudy in the world of my heart
The sun is hidden
Out of sight
It’s not raining yet
But the sky is getting dark
There is a sense of emptiness in my heart
Joy has gone and and left nothing behind
Bla is how some people describe it
Or are the emotions unwelcome ones
Creating discomfort in my heart?
Whatever it is, it will surely pass
It’s part of the human condition to feel
Out of sorts sometimes
At such times the best cure for me
Is to write my feelings down
And let sadness flow from my pen
Till it’s gone
January 25th, 2018
Order to chaos
Chaos to order
That seems to be the cycle of life!
After chaos, order comes into being
But order can only last so long
Before it’s time to grow again
And chaos arrives to destroy the order that exists
To prepare the way for a new order, and calm!
When one is in one’s comfort zone
Life seems more pleasant of course!
But comfort never leads to growth!
Growth comes from the disorder of struggles
And challenges that may seem insurmountable at times!
Chaos and disorder, not comfortable
Not what we love
But oh, the results can be wonderful
If one persists long enough
And learns the lessons they teach us
The building needs to be destroyed
Before a new one can be built
An old idea must die
Old habits must be let go of
Old patterns replace new ones
Often, it’s after the dust has settled
New lessons learned
New thinking adopted
New habits formed
That one realises what the chaos was for!
What was thought of as misfortune
Can be seen as grace
What was painful
Can give rise to joy!
Illness can lead to clarity
Blocks in the road can lead us to another path
One’s best laid plans can come to naught
What emerges instead though
Can be a marvelous surprise!
September 4th, 2014
I feel in life
I’ve been often led
Sometimes even pulled and drawn
Against my will!
What I said never to
Has come to be
What I thought would break me
Has built me up
Somehow I thought I knew best
Somehow I thought I should decide
The unexpected arrived
And inconvenienced me
I did not know why!
Why were my plans
Turned upside down?
When I expected to go left
Why did I end up going right?
My unhappiness came from the fact
That I did not consider
That I didn’t have the answers all
That I was in fact wrong at times!
Maybe I didn’t have the humility
To accept a different path
A better path
In the long run!
Maybe I looked at the short term challenges
And did not look far enough
Maybe I did not realize that experiencing
Discomfort was part of growing up!
February 21st, 2013