Its like a re-birth!
What was lost
Is back again
The person I was longing for
The energy that eluded me
The smile that would be sincere
The laughter that would pierce the silence
Is back again!
After four months of darkness
I see the light
After four months of hopelessness
I have hope again
After four months of sorrow
I feel joy again
The confidence that had left
Is back
The reason to be alive
Exists
Joyful moments
Have returned
I dont have to ask
When at last
What have I learned?
To have faith!
Who should I turn to?
My friends!
I needed to have implicit trust
In someone
I needed to share my sorrows
And to cry
To rid myself of this
Image of perfection
To be vulnerable
From time to time
To not be ashamed of
My weaknesses
To love who I am
All the time
My strengths
My weaknesses
My stumbles and falls
My struggles
My inadequacy
My foibles and all
It is so hard to find
Those we trust
It is so hard to share
When were down
It is so hard to hang on
When all hope is gone
It is so hard to believe
When darkness abounds
What will I say
To my friends?
How will they react?
Will they still love me?
Will they understand?
Shoulders to lean on
Friends to hold my hands
Those who wont judge me
Those who understand
Thats what I needed
Thats what I got
Thats why am thankful
Thats why I smile!
Lida Berghuis
August 8th, 2008
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