A smile

I’ve noticed I like people who smile a lot

Of course that’s not the only criteria 

A good disposition, a friendly nature, and a helpful attitude

Count as well

I started wondering why I admire people who smile often

These are my thoughts:

A smile shows love

It shows an openness of spirit

It says I like to talk to you 

Or at the minimum I acknowledge you

A smile cheers the soul

A smile lifts up one’s spirit

A smile usually makes the person being smiled at, smile too

And it’s always refreshing to smile

The world is a better place when we smile

All the troubles seem further away

Nov 22, 2024

High heel blues

Why can’t comfortable shoes be pretty?

Why can’t pretty shoes be comfortable?

I’ve searched high and low 

And all I find 

Is pretty high heel shoes

And plain looking flat comfortable shoes 

Why can’t we have both beauty and comfort?

Why should our feet suffer for the sake of beauty?

Why should our toes get squished 

In pointy toed shoes?

Why, why, why?

And I admit this is a first world problem 

November 16, 2024

Doing nothing at all

Sometimes all I want to do is nothing at all

Productivity can be so overrated

My bills will be there tomorrow

My garden can be prepared for winter later too

And the dishes can find their way into the dishwasher somehow 

For now I will do what I want

Make a video reciting my poems

Upload them on various platforms

Make sure the front picture looks good

Check how many people have seen it

Self-absorbed, I know

Surf YouTube 

Listen to Stray-kids

Sit some more

Day dream a little

Think of this poem

Write it in my IPad

These are the things I do

When I do nothing at all

Nov 9th, 2024

Tears of love

How do you explain the connection of hearts, the love you feel?

Is it by the tears you shed at the timear of departure?

Tears that sometimes refuse to stop

Where is all this water coming from?   

We have all kinds of love

Immature love wants to keep the object of the love close by

Mature love allows the loved one to go and explore the world 

And come back richer for those experiences 

I’m at my regular refuge  

The place that brings me calm 

What makes the coffeeshop such a relaxing place for me? 

People, music, coffee, writing, drawing

Or all of the above? 

Things we feel are hard to describe, quantify or explain

Feelings belong to another realm

They come with us when we leave this world 

Nov 5, 2024

Nick and Magalie Leave for Korea and Japan

So much emotion

So much emotion

Up and done

Worried and resigned 

Impatient and tired 

So much waiting 

For the doctors

For the ultrasound 

Over an hour for the ultrasound 

Waiting is the hardest thing for me

Especially when I don’t know how long

Especially when I am tired and anxious

Especially when the results can have such a big impact

But all is well that ends well

The ultrasound was clear

The blood test results were good 

And for now, there is no sign of cancer 

And it will most likely remain the same 

Because of the medication I’m taking 

All in all good news

A sense of relief

But the fatigue stays 

Until I have a good night’s sleep 

June 18, 2024

Me time

As I sit down with my coffee

I review the items on my to do list in my head

To see what I have done and what’s left

-organize basement (a multi-day activity)

-water flowers

-go to the pharmacy

-buy batteries for the bathroom scale

-Make an agenda for an upcoming meeting

-grocery shopping

-preparing dinner

…..

But sometimes the to do list 

Needs to be modified 

And ‘me time’ added to the top

Time do do what makes me happy 

Time to replenish my energy

Time to be creative 

And I chose to do that right now

There are many things I must do 

Some urgent, some less so

But now I chose to take care of myself

So I will be refreshed 

And able to do what must be done

August 14, 2024

My Thing

I’m good at doing things that don’t make money

Volunteering is my thing

In the kids’ schools when they were little 

In Holland the year after we got married

The Baha’i community got most of my attention

From organizing children’s classes

To being the editor of the Montreal newsletter

To organizing an English corner for new Chinese immigrants

To coordinating the volunteers for the Shrine in Montreal 

My books are something else I do out of love 

It’s certainly not to make money 

But when my writing touches someone’s soul

It’s better than all the money in the world 

Raising my kids was unpaid labour too 

One I am very happy to have devoted my time to

Perhaps what is important is the result of our labours 

And how they help others 

Rather than what we earn 

Volunteering is its own reward 

August 28, 2024

People person

People give me energy 

I need to be out and about

A solitary life is not for me 

I would wither, I would not be fine 

My smile is usually returned with a smile 

I was not happy when we were wearing masks

How were people supposed to see my smile?

How could I communicate with them without words?

Being with people is like walking in the sun

Everything is brighter

It’s easier to smile 

I guess I’m a people person 

And I always will be 

It must be hard to believe 

I was shy as a teen

March 11, 2024

why I write

When I feel something is not right 

When I miss my smile 

When things don’t seem exciting 

When there is a yearning in my heart

I draw or I write 

When I miss the sunshine 

Because it’s been raining all day 

When I need a pick me up

Any time of day

I draw or I write 

When I draw or write

I’m in another world

My focus is on the paper

And the thoughts in my head

It’s a magical time 

And when the poem is done 

When the drawing is finished 

I feel uplifted and I want to smile 

What is this magic? 

The act of creation?

Why does it cheer me up? 

Isn’t creating beauty therapeutic after all?

I don’t know the answers to these questions

And that’s fine 

All I know is that I will be writing and drawing

For the rest of my life 

February 28th, 2024

The secret


What is the secret?

Saying good bye to perfectionism

Being able to be vulnerable 

And share your shortcomings or problems

Not being afraid of being judged

With that comes freedom

Freedom to be who you really are 

Freedom to break the heavy masks of pretention

With that comes serenity, peacefulness

With that comes feeling light, having nothing to hide 

With that comes authentic friendships which bring you joy

This is the secret

February 23, 2024