It’s hard to know what I’m feeling
Disappointed?
Sad?
Surprised?
Confused?

I feel a flood of emotion
But the feeling itself is clear as mud!

Someone or something has caused this
I know
But what I exactly feel
I couldn’t tell you

It’s something that is taking up space
In my head and heart
I can’t brush it off
It demands attention
But how can I address it
If I don’t even know
What I’m dealing with

I wonder what to do
Do I keep thinking till I figure it out?
Do I talk to someone?
Or do I just experience the confusion
And move on?

These feelings will be resolved
In time
But for now they are as clear as mud!

Lida Berghuis
November 13th, 2013