It’s cold and cloudy Saturday morning

And I’m at the mall doing Lida things

Which happens to be nothing today

Got my coffee beside me near the cafe

As all the tables are taken

And my notebook on my lap

Yes, I still write in notebooks from time to time

I’m reflecting on life

No matter what serious situation you are in

Someone else is dealing with worse

People don’t walk with their problem

Written on a piece of paper and stuck on their backs

So nobody knows what others are going through 

I see a small child in a stroller 

The childhood of our children is done

They are now adults, living their own lives

Sometime in the future grandchildren will come

That will be the beginning of a new era

Wow, that is a huge bun on top of that girl’s head

Standing in the coffee line

It looks like a nest sitting on her head

Must be heavy, I think to myself

These are things we do for beauty

I’m guilty of that too

Thank you for sharing my doing nothing time with me 

I find it very therapeutic

23 Nov 2024

Waiting in the waiting room

Looking at the names on the screen to see when my turn is 

Actually Albert does most of the looking 

While I doodle or read

Uncomfortable thoughts go round and round in my head

What was the result of the CT scan?

Will I have another surprise?

Most likely everything is fine 

But cancer is very unpredictable 

You are never totally out of the woods

Of course, in a normal life things can go wrong too and surprises can be around the corner 

But in my case, the possibilities are higher

When you are healthy you never suspect that an illness will come 

And ignorance is bliss 

But once you’ve had cancer the possibilities of a recurrence bother you 

And when illness returns, it’s a major thing

You can’t fix it that easily 

So, these are the things that go round and round in my head as I wait and wait for my name on the blue screen 

March 17, 2025